Today was strangely refreshing.
I woke up early again. Parent was talking on the phone (I think I need ear plugs), for an hour. I followed my usual agenda, and went to work feeling a little down but felt a flame inside. I had breaded chicken for lunch, with a side of stuffing, and some corn. The dessert was  a nice heapping piece of the green cake I had yesterday.
I'd prefer to write an overview of all the important things that happened today, instead of a play by play, like I have for the last two days. Change things up a little.
Mittens (nrn) threw up at work, in the grocery dep. and was sent home early, leaving five of us to handle the 2,400 pieces that came off the truck tonight. Subsequently, I was over in pets again. The guy who worked with me the other night wasn't there, but Roy was. Today he stood on a ladder, and changed signs around. "Unbeatable," was the logo, above the prices. Yeah...?
I found moth balls for some old black woman. I took an l-cart filled with H&Ba products tossed the boxes off of it and used that for pets. Later on, my boss was subtly upset about this. Sublty, because he is never clear about when he is angered. I like that in the sense that he doesn't have a temper, or get mad about anything, but I don't like it in the sense that he is too shady about his real ideas, and judgements. He is the supervisor and needs to base his job instructions, as well as disapproves with clairity. His subtle approach to asking me to bring the cart back I respected, and followed through. It was a lazy asshole kind of thing for me to do, and I shouldn't do it again.
I was tricked out by a co-worker who was pulling a pallet side ways. At first I thought it was extra large, for some reason, and then he turned it around. How exciting. 
  I did a couple claims they were
1. Orange and white bottle of Neutrogena Shampoo.
2. Blueberry muffin scented candles.
1. Pumpkin scented candle.
and a couple of light bulbs, some of which were tainted Amber. (made by Ge.)
On my last break I was outside, sitting next to Ivy, and a girl walked by and asked if I had an extra cig. "No go get your fucking own you stupid whore," is what I told her.
>_<
Got you didn't I?
No what I actually said was, "yep." Gave her one, and she thanked me and I said, "sure." Two words spoken. How pitfull I am. She was pretty and I could have talked to her more. She lite it up, and Instead of sitting next to me, she sat on the curb. I didn't expect a conversation as compensation for my loss of Tobacco, but I wouldn't have minded talking to such a good-looking chick. I guess my short words, threw her attention to the road. :(
That's okay. There are billions of fish in the sea. I used a worm to catch one before, worked great. (stupid try at a joke)
It was a good day, because after work I felt great. It was an easy night, and things couldn't have gone much better. I thank the great universe for days like these. Other days, I can be wishing the universe did not exist. In the midst of those days, I have massive paronia. I had a slight chill of it this morning. My mom came over and started smiling, and laughing in my face. It creeped me the fuck out. Not because it was a random thing to do, but for a reason much deeper. I have never figured out why the universe exists other than what science has taught me, and sometimes my mind likes to pop out this hatered for not knowing the meaning of all things. So instead of just going with the illusion (or just life) of life it fights back and makes me think it all makes no fucking sense whatsoever. It is a single thought that goes something like, "Wtf x10 million." It doesn't make me angry as some would assume. It gives me cold chills of terror, and I flee from them. When I go with the illusion more, when I accept things just for being the way they are, for no reason behind it all, than I feel happy. But when I don't want to accept, when I deny this reality, and appelate it as something impossibly contrasting to the great nothing, I think nothing should really exist, instead of all these freaking somethings, that is when I feel low. That's the only mental confliction I really have in life. All other conflictions I face headed on, and with strength swim through them like air. Fear of spiders, puff gone. Anger, pinch gone. 
That's it for tonight. Let it be a good night and an amazing tomorrow.